Guest Post: Remembering Lev
Wanted to use Things I’m Thinking to help spread my dear friend’s words.
Written by Brittany Polanco
It’s hard for me to believe my brother is gone.
It’s even harder for me to believe that he chose to take his own life.
My brother and I were best friends and our relationship as siblings was unlike any other I’ve ever experienced. I’m beyond grateful that, for the first 28 years of my life, I had the chance to experience life’s beauty and take on life’s chaos with the best big brother I could ask for.
To know Levin was to adore Levin. He was kind, intelligent, and charismatic. He immediately lit up any room he entered, making people feel welcome and joyous. He cared so deeply about anyone around him and always went out of his way to help others, even when he didn’t have much to give. He had such a positive impact on so many lives.
Possibly, primarily, my own.
Posting this on social media is not something I want to do. Honestly, it’s a bit of a nightmare, but I do feel it’s important to share. In his goodbye to me, my brother spoke of a broken soul and having so much sadness inside of him. The thing is, that’s not how anyone would describe him. I hate that he didn’t feel comfortable enough to get help and I refuse to keep quiet about something that’s become so heartbreakingly prevalent.
It’s important to realize how easy it is to hide our psychological wellbeing. People assume if you send a happy text or post a happy picture on social media that everything is OK. It’s not. Everyone is struggling with something and we all need to make an effort to create a safe place to talk about it. Just being there to listen or support others as they work through difficult emotions can change a life.
It’s not about knowing the answer or solving all of their problems. But it’s the fact that people need a safe and comfortable place to deal with the challenges that life continues to throw our way, without judgement or fear.
Please keep perspective on what’s important and don’t let technology, ego or societal pressures distract you from spending your time with the people you care about.
I hope you all make the choice, in a time of so much hate and stress and uncertainty, to open your hearts and spread positive energy. I hope you make the choice to support each other with love and empathy and compassion. I hope you allow yourselves and others to love fully, love deeply and love unconditionally. People thrive when they feel loved and accepted and safe as their authentic selves. We need to do a lot more of that.
While there will always be a hole in my heart, I will do everything in my power to continue to spread Lev’s beautiful spirit. The fact that he’s gone is an absolute tragedy because he was AMAZING. I wish I got the chance to tell him how loved he was and how perfect he was to me.
LGC, I’ll love you forever ❤
Please share this story and love with all your heart ❤